Thank You..

When at first we met,
I hoped you wouldn't forget
So right from the start,
And with each beat of my heart
I prayed it would be you,
To make my wish come true
Cause I need to always feel,
A love that's truly real

Life is getting very bleak
I don't think I will find the love I seek
The future is seemingly black
and I know there is no going back.

The chances for success
are becoming less and less
I have poured out my soul and heart
we still remain miles apart.

I have exposed the real me
for very few to see
They will not forget
I will probably regret.

All I have to offer is me
not enough I see
My love, heart, help and desire
not enough to light anyone's fire

Feeling less amused,
but totally confused
I have lost, so I must let her be
there is nothing else to do, I see.

But my love for her is so deep
it even robs me of sleep
I am in so much emotional pain
maybe a blade deep into a vein.

No, its the way out of the cheat
its not me, its not neat
To myself I must confess,
not leave others to clean up the mess.

In the world you can only help a few
I only wanted to give her a life that was true
There is a lot more to her than meets the eye
but she is caged and not allowed to fly.

Her potential has no bounds
she needs to hear the right sounds
Now I see, they are not destined to come from me
I've tried my best, can't keep up with the rest.

My love she will deny
so I may just curl up and die
I will push no more, just close the door
Hide in obscurity, never again seek purity

My last wish from this mess,
is that she find love and total success
I should have known, as a mere male
I was destined to fail.

I know that seclusion is a must
I must admit it is her I still love and trust
Like a sister or best friend,
I had hoped it would be until the end

Wrong again, I must have been insane
Time to let her go, never to let my inner self show
Its too much of an emotional drain, impossible pain
Never, never, never again.

Time to allow myself to grow old
forever staying alone and cold
I've said my piece, I'll say no more
I'll just curl up here and die on the floor.

If life was a dream

If life was a dream
You'd be here with me
Laughing, hand in hand
Smiling for all to see


If life was a dream
Together we'd grow old
Still making future plans
Forgetting years stole.

If life was a dream
Sun would never fade alone
Darkness simply surrenders
To love you have shown

If life was a dream
No tear would fall from eyes
No prayer will go unheard
True love could never die

If life was a dream
I'd be back in your arms
Kissing your sweet lips
Safe from all life's harms

If life was a dream
I'd never feel alone
Pain would not exist
For you would be home

If life was a dream
No plans would be betrayed
Love will shower everywhere
No need to be afraid

If life was a dream
Why would I need to sleep?
When I have you by my side
And your heart to keep

Naive..

It makes me feel sick
It never goes away
It stains my life forever
The humiliation stays

I am use to it now
But it still feels wrong
I know it is my weakness
How I wish to be strong

I try to listen to my head
But I wear my heart on my sleeve
I'm a little wiser now so why do
I still act so naive

Sorry For Not Listening

She Wrote This For me..?

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,
But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,
I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.

You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,
After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,
And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.